from
Introspect,
released February 1, 2016
I've spent so much time
hiding the bodies of my past life
that I've long since forgotten
what it feels like to be innocent.
I'm embarrassed by myself
and that it took so long to realize:
I can't have faith in anything
if I don't have faith in myself.
How am I supposed to grow when I'm losing sleep?
I'm too afraid of being let down
to put my trust in anything or anyone.
I've been the fool before,
but it's hard to blame anyone but myself.
I don't have faith.
I can't find faith in anything,
not even myself.
I thought I had recovered,
but now I'm not so sure.
This sinking feeling has never left me.
I feel so insecure.